April 17, 2013
Bubbles, Wine and Chocolate
There are a few things I find relaxing and stress relieving,
a bubble bath, a glass of wine and chocolate, dark chocolate. The only thing that makes it better is to combine
all three.
I never know how an idea for a column is going to
come together. The news, of course
provides the basics. It’s the everyday
conversations and experiences that have a way of tying it all together. The thing about a peaceful bubble bath is
that it allows the mind to wonder. It
can be very therapeutic. The mind jumps
from one thought to another, looking at the past and thinking about the
future. There has been laughter and
tears but both have provided reflective thought that has been both intense and
light hearted. When we force ourselves
to just think, it’s amazing where the mind can travel. Thinking and going about your daily routine
isn’t the same as placing yourself in a confined space with nothing but your thoughts
to ponder.
Last week I spent some time revisiting the
past. Boxes that have been sitting in
storage since I left a bad situation needed to be organized. I went from one end of the emotional scale to
the other. I found both good and bad
memories. I revisited childhood memories
and traveled through young adult friendships.
Photographs pulled at the heart strings.
This is why I didn’t want to open boxes, not so much for the bad that I
would see but for the good that I lost.
The mind adjusts and goes into survival mode. Dealing with the bad becomes just another
day. Being reminded of how good life
once was makes you wonder how and why.
Looking at objects and pictures from the dark years
was difficult. Realizing that certain
pictures held no meaning was comforting.
I don’t regret what I did to secure my freedom. Reading journal entries was most difficult. I was trying so hard to survive that I didn’t
realize what was taking place. It was at
this moment, after a sip of wine, that several events from my week came
together. I was able to tie up the loose ends.
I read my history; interaction with others provided insight and ideas.
What seemed insignificant at the time had an
alarming impact on my life. There are
consequences for bad decisions even if we make them with good intentions. I was defending and denying something that I
couldn’t quite acknowledge but it was there and I knew something wasn’t right. I tried to pretend everything was fine.
I dealt with my share of smoke and mirrors, double
talk and the general feeling that no matter what I did I was wrong. Making decisions became a tricky road to
navigate. I knew no matter what I
decided it would end up being the wrong decision, so I stopped making them.
I smiled to hide the pain. If I allowed my true feelings to show, it
caused problems. There were too many
distractions. I wasn’t able to focus on
just one issue because another issue would pop up. I was overwhelmed and drowning. I had all the basics I needed and even a few
extras. I was however, lacking a couple
key components, freedom and independence.
My servitude provided luxury for the one in the elite category.
I fear that Americans are on the same path. We’ve been so busy trying to survive that we
haven’t been paying attention to what is happening around us. When an entity wants to provide and protect
you, it comes with a hefty price tag.
Freedom is an absolute right. But
with freedom comes responsibility.
Americans have been free to live their lives as they choose, but we
haven’t always been responsible. The
government has now decided that we aren’t capable of making the right decisions. They are stepping in and making them for us. Our government is enslaving the people and
the people do not see what is happening.
Our government is trying to convince us we need protection from
ourselves. We need to realize this
before it’s too late.
I see boxes being opened sometime down the road with
evidence of the way life used to be for Americans. The evidence will be hidden because it’s too
difficult face. We will somehow adjust
to the transformation by going into survival mode. The memories of the good will come back to
haunt us. Looking back we will see when
and how it happened. The picture will be
clear once the smoke and mirrors have disappeared. Out of fear we accepted things that didn’t
seem right. We were too busy trying to survive.
The government convinced us that it knew best. We were no longer capable of making the right
decisions. We smiled out of fear.
“Independence is happiness”
Susan B. Anthony
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